Saturday, October 3, 2015

Two months of Wells!

And just like that little Wells is two months old!
The second month of his life was spent mostly in a baby wrap as I toted him around to Distinguished Young Woman rehearsals (literally ALL day long -- he was such a champ!) and furniture shopping.
The biggest distinction between his first month and his second is SMILING!
It melts my mama heart.
Throughout the day, I'll look down at him in my arms or sitting in his bouncer across the room, or standing like this like the little man he is
(he's obsessed with standing. it's kind of creepy sometimes.)
and he'll flash me a big, gummy smile and I feel things I never knew I could for him.
He has brought so much joy into my life and not a day goes by that I don't feel immense gratitude to be a mother, and also feel gratitude for my own mother and Jason's mother.

A part of Jeffrey R. Holland's general conference talk yesterday basically said it all.
He quote's a young mother who wrote him this in a letter:

"How is it that a human being can love a child so deeply that you will willingly give up a major portion of your freedom for it? How can mortal love be so strong that you voluntarily subject yourself to responsibility, vulnerability, anxiety and heartache, and just keep coming back for more of the same? What kind of mortal love can make you feel, once you have a child, that your life is never, ever to be your own again? Maternal love has to be divine, there is no other explanation for such feelings."

I couldn't have said it better myself.
That quote describes so much of what I am just beginning to understand in motherhood.
Yes, it takes me 2 hours -- sometimes longer -- to leave the house instead of 30 minutes.
Yes, I am exhausted and haven't had a full night's sleep in months.
Yes, I did voluntarily give up much of the "freedom" I once had.
And yes, I would do it all again.

I mean come on, just look at that little face!

I love you baby boy. Even more today than I did yesterday.

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